Here I am again typing down all my feelings. I love myself more than I know. Its just sometimes I've been put down to think that I have to be a certain way to be happy about myself. No matter how fat I am or how skinny I get, I will be the same regardless. Regardless I'm still Gerlyn. There is nothing wrong with me and the way that I am, I am a beautiful person in and out, some may not see that but the only person that needs to know that is myself. I'm glad I pulled through with the past criticism that I had and it only made me stronger. I am who I am I love myself with or without makeup, whether I have my days where I feel ugly, I'm still glad that I am the person who will have their head held high knowing that only my opinion counts when it comes to me. In fact I will prove all the criticism wrong, how dare they point out my flaws when they have their own to worry about.

Today I watched Glee, Mercedes the big girl was forced to lose 10 pounds because she was apart of the cheer team and of course being the cheer team they were perfect skinny girls. She sang "Beautiful". How it made me think... who's perfect? No one. So what if my tummy isn't toned, so what if I have scars on every inch of my body, so what if my nose isn't small? EMBRACE IT. I have two legs, two arms, two hands, everything I need to function, and that is all that matters. I may be unsatisfied with somethings about me, but that doesn't mean I don't love myself. Things like that I can change if I want to, but accept my beauty whether if I was skinny or fat, yes its different but unique. But, whatever my body looks like, my personality outshines it. My talent, my knowledge, my morals are what makes me, me. Let's admit it, I've always been an insecure person ever since I was a little girl. My mind was set to think I must put myself down because of my image. Its still a struggling thing I go through, but I know that time and patience will only make me stronger. In time my insecurities will disappear. No one can put me down because God made me the way I am. He gave me this body to recognize my flaws and understand it whether I want to fix it or not. My image isn't everything, is what I actually make myself out to be. The life I have and making. I'm on a great path in my life and that is all that matters. I'm beautiful inside and out.