Stuck here at Starbucks with so many different personalities around me talking loudly, laughter all around, and Christmas songs playing I wish I could enjoy. I'm here trying to get this presentation done however my mind much rather be in another place. Distractions surround my life, I just can't wait til all those distractions turn into something I can use rather then just dwell on. My life does not consist of sadness. My life consist of content and happyness which I have lost. Yes as a person I use to be I am deteriorating into a person who I do not like at all. I've lose control of my personality, my being, and the people around me. I miss me being so energetic and just being my silly self without worrying about a single thing. I never used to be so I'm disappointed with what I've become and what I wish not to continue to be. I lost who I've been as well. I lost the person that means the most to me, is me. Yeah, I need to help myself be who I used to be, that happy outgoing girl who careless if she was a goof. I've been thinking about everything that makes my head want to explode when really I don't have to. I can't waste time being this person I transition into in such a negative way. I keep telling myself say positive, even when times are at its all time low, at least have that little light let you know everything is going to be fine if you let it be. I'll be fine eventually, please let me be me again, that's all I want.